2020

Sorry guys I took a break over the holidays, it was too much to deal with.. I did go to my grandmother’s for supper and my sister’s for two nights so that was pretty awesome. I’ve been so spaced out and not fully there. At xmas dinner I felt like I was floating outside my…

Weekend #1

Heres to the first weekend post on here.. its gonna be a fun weekend sitting here alone getting stoned and listening to music. I woke up this morning and made french toast and showered, hoping it would energize me to do something meaningful today, it energized me enough to go to tims and get a…

Feel

As I sit here and think about how I feel or been feeling today.. I realize I haven’t been feeling really anything.. Ever since I woke up its like im floating outside of my body. Stuck in a daze.. all day. Its friday I should be trying to make plans with friends or do something…

School

I miss waking up everyday and having a routine. I would wake up at 7:30 get ready and be out the door for 8:30 so I made it to school for 9:30. I was always so excited to go to school it was my get away from all the demons in my head, kind of….

Hesitant

Sitting here thinking about bad habits.. Im not stupid, matter of fact im far from stupid. Im just scared if I dont stop my bad habits it will ruin my life. I dont wanna loose everything I have left.. or anyone I have left.. to bad habits. This doesn’t mean drugs if thats what your…

Getting better..?

Most people would say im doing better.. I forget about everything for a moment, just for a moment.. but it always comes back. I was so angry and sad before.. so I must be doing better right? I dont hide my scars anymore. Ive never attempted suicide before because im too scared. Im worried about…

Father’s leave

I always wondered why you left, Was I too much or was mom too much? Or maybe you just weren’t ready to have a daughter right? Did you run away from us forever or just a lifetime. I remember little things like talking on the phone with you when I was little. I remember you…